I don't usually talk about myself because I've been trained to keep everything private, and to not get close to other people. Friendships and allies are connections I shouldn't need to get my job done correctly.
But I miss Cooper and I don't know how to handle that. I've never had an adult actually care about me like that before outside of being a weapon or a soldier to train. I think Odin cared, but he didn't show it the way most of you would expect a parent to. Cooper knew what I was capable of, but he still looked out for me.
I feel like the Barge is wearing away walls I need to do my job correctly, if I ever went home. But I actually don't really give a damn about what I did. I regret some of the deaths my orders were responsible for, but the cause wasn't really mine to fight for. I just followed orders because I don't know how to do anything else. I know I was fighting for the right side, I just don't care about the outcome of the war itself.
Also I think you're all ridiculous for assuming that just because I'm a teenager that I'm not particularly capable or dangerous. I'm probably responsible for more deaths than most of you.
[Private to Olive]I want to talk about this with you but don't know how to ask you about it.
[Private to Naoto]I am incredibly embarrassed about how my port counterpart acted during our "dragon hunt" and I hope you aren't planning on making any assumptions about me based on who I was there because thus far I respect you.
[ooc: lol affected. c: This will all be retroactively private when the flood is over.]