When I first got here, many people assumed because I was a soldier that I was here because I was fighting on the wrong side, and I needed to learn that my methods were wrong or that I was fighting for a cause that didn't need to be fought for. They were wrong.

I was here as an inmate because I let myself get so caught up in the mistakes I'd made that I lost sight of what we were actually fighting for, and wanted to throw my life away at any opportunity instead of caring about what we were trying to accomplish. I'm leaving to finish what was started because I know it's the right thing to do.

I may be back, if given the opportunity. But I can't spend any more time here acting like I don't have anywhere else to go.

[Filtered to Friends.]

Thank you.

[Private to Olive]

I don't think where I'm going is a suitable environment for a cat.

( Letter to Santa: Olive, Kay, Rhade, Una, Chromie, Rinzler, Brax (+ Sherry), Cooper, Ariadne, David )

[Hey guys, Heero's back, and is now being brought in from after episode sixteen, for the curious/Gundam Wing savvy. He looks pretty much the same as usual, maybe a little paler and skinnier, although anyone who actually knows him well might be able to tell he's looking a little confused, because by his personal calendar, it shouldn't still be November.]

... It's only been two weeks. It feels like it should have been longer.

Although I guess given the state of that flood, I shouldn't be complaining. [Was that... maybe kind of a joke? His tone is still as dry as ever, so good luck making a call on that one.]

Has anything else significant happened? [He already knows, given his network stalking ways, but he's more interested in hearing people's opinions on the matter after the fact.]

[Infirmary Filter]

[Hnnn he kind of hates to do this, but:] I'm in need of some minor medical assistance.

[Filtered to Friends - if you think you're on it, you are.]

Report.

[Private to Kay]

... I need to talk to you.

[Private to Olive]

[Hey Olive. Your network stalking inmate noticed your escapades while he was gone. :V] I'm sorry I left.

[Heero has been debating posting anything. There's not really anyone from back home he wants to talk to, and he's not super interested in talking to everyone else on the network, but.

Okay fine, there's at least one person he's interested in talking to.]

... Cooper?

[ooc: No restrictions on Heero, feel free to tackle him with whoever!]

I'd accepted a long time ago that there are some things about this place we'll probably never fully understand based on the science available to us, but it's too bad that even after an incident like that, we still don't understand how this place actually works. Not surprising, but disappointing.

... There are far worse things than being stuck in space for three days.

[Infirmary Filter]

If there's any way I can help in the wake of what happened, I'd like to offer my assistance.

[Private to Una]

Are you alright?

[Private to Olive]

I don't really want to push the issue now that the crisis is over, but I still think you should look into some self defense lessons if you're planning on staying here.

And I want a weapon.

... We probably need to talk about some other things, too.

Who was investigating the phenomenon before port?

[Private to Olive]

I need a weapon.

[Friends Filter - Una, Rinzler, Rhade, Kay, Brax, Slade, Ariadne]

Check in.

I don't usually talk about myself because I've been trained to keep everything private, and to not get close to other people. Friendships and allies are connections I shouldn't need to get my job done correctly.

But I miss Cooper and I don't know how to handle that. I've never had an adult actually care about me like that before outside of being a weapon or a soldier to train. I think Odin cared, but he didn't show it the way most of you would expect a parent to. Cooper knew what I was capable of, but he still looked out for me.

I feel like the Barge is wearing away walls I need to do my job correctly, if I ever went home. But I actually don't really give a damn about what I did. I regret some of the deaths my orders were responsible for, but the cause wasn't really mine to fight for. I just followed orders because I don't know how to do anything else. I know I was fighting for the right side, I just don't care about the outcome of the war itself.

Also I think you're all ridiculous for assuming that just because I'm a teenager that I'm not particularly capable or dangerous. I'm probably responsible for more deaths than most of you.

[Private to Olive]

I want to talk about this with you but don't know how to ask you about it.

[Private to Naoto]

I am incredibly embarrassed about how my port counterpart acted during our "dragon hunt" and I hope you aren't planning on making any assumptions about me based on who I was there because thus far I respect you.

[ooc: lol affected. c: This will all be retroactively private when the flood is over.]

[Filtered to people Heero cares about likes okay: Olive, Cooper, Slade, Kay, Brax, Rhade, Una, Rinzler.]

I'm awake. What happened while I was out?

[This is his way of asking how everyone is, he's already stalked the hell out of the network.]