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If the Admiral lets us choose to leave the ship for some ports, why do we get such limited warning about being able to disembark?

[Private to Ariadne]

I want to see my file.

[Private to David]

Did your plan work?

[Private to Slade; added later]

I heard you assisted in subduing David during port.

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It's better than just lying down and accepting it, isn't it? You got a better plan?

We're dead. What does anything we do actually matter?

That's bull. We're not dead. We breathe, don't we? I know I breathe. I breathe, I think, I feel... and I most certainly live. As my own man, not the Admiral's puppet.

You died before coming here, didn't you?

I thought I did. I remember being strangled, blacking out, and then waking up here. But even if I did, what's it mean? I'm alive now. That's what matters.

Our lives are over. Finding the Admiral doesn't change that.

Yeah? Maybe your life is over. Not mine. I've still got things I want to do. This isn't some fucked-up afterlife and the Admiral's not my god. You seriously telling me you're fine with jumping through hoops for the Admiral?

I'm saying that nothing that happens here matters. I've completed my mission. There's nothing else I have to do.

If that's true, why are you even bothering trying to learn more about the Barge? Why'd you freak when you thought I might kill your warden? Don't give me that crap, Heero. The mission's not over as long as you're alive.

I didn't "freak". I've accepted that I'm here, I can't return to where I was and I'd rather know everything I can about it then enter a situation blindly.

Why do you care if 'nothing that happens here matters'? [He's not lettin' that one go so easy, Heero.]

I need something to do.

Let me ask you something point-blank: do you think trying to find the Admiral is a waste of time?

Yes.

I expected more fight from you.

Why?

You're a soldier, aren't you?

Yes. [Well. Terrorist, but yeah, sure, we'll go with that. >>;]

Maybe it's just me, but isn't a soldier about not giving up so easy? What makes you think it's such a lost cause?

Because past data indicates it's impossible. What makes you so special that you can do what everyone else hasn't?

You already know what. There's no one else on the Barge who can do what I can.

How does changing into an animal immediately mean you can locate the Admiral?

Because I can go places no one else on the ship can go. I can spy on people when they think they've got total privacy. I can be any living warden on this ship and unless Bourne spilled the beans, they'll never know.

And with everything else we have on board, you honestly think there's never been another shapeshifter?

Not one like me. You've read all the logs. What do you think?

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